Shay Cochrane Photography

December 31, 2009

Just another mushy New Year’s blog post…

Filed under: Just For Fun — shaycochrane @ 1:11 am

It’s that time of year isn’t it?  Those of us with blogs feel the pressure to wrap up the year by imparting to the world some profound life lessons learned and inspirational resolutions to top all resolutions…hmm…or maybe it is just me. Maybe this make me nervous because I am just terrible at sharing myself on my blog and maybe it is because I honestly know that I am just not witty or wise enough to leave you with something worth reading. And then there is the whole professionalism bit and not sharing too much of your beliefs that you may step on someone’s toes and offend clients…well despite all that, here goes…

This past year has been um…busy.  We had our first child, moved away from all of our family and most of our friends to a new state, bought our first home, are helping to start a new church and college ministry at USF, have gotten new jobs and lost jobs, are starting two businesses from scratch, celebrated our 4 year wedding anniversary and are currently watching and waiting each month as God provides for our bills to be paid.  We are learning how to be parents, we are learning how to be husband and wife (still..and always), we are learning how to be church planters, we are learning how to be business owners and develop our “crafts”, we are learning that we are in control of little to nothing and learning that we would be lost…literally in the miserable dark without God’s grace and promises.

Our hope for next year is for things to settle down (haha – not likely, I know)  But this past year has forced so much transition that we are hoping for some time to process…and grow…and be mentally in one place.  We shall see.

My biggest resolution can be summed up in the lyrics to the Phil Wickham song Mystery:

Here in the quiet speak to me now
My ears are open to
Your gentle sweet whispering
Break down the door, come inside
Shine down Your bright light
I need a lamp for my feet, I need a lamp for my feet

I want to hear the thunder of who You are
To be captured inside the wonder of who You are
I want to live I want to breathe
To search out Your heart and all of Your mysteries

You were the first and You’ll be the end
Time cannot hold You down
Why save a wretch like me?
No eye has seen, no ear has heard
No heart could fully know
All of Your mystery

Your glory burns in the stars
Shine down your light let it burn in my heart
Bring me to glory, bring me to you
Lord it’s your heart that I will hold onto

Your glory burns in the stars
Shine down Your light let me know who You are
Jesus, Your glory burns in the stars
Shine down Your light, let me see You

For some reason, the close of this year has brought with it a painful and wonderful reminder that I really cannot do anything effective, anything valuable, anything that will last and effect change if I am not directly in tune with and connected to God’s heart as it is revealed in the Bible.  If you are not a Christian reading this then I understand that this makes almost no sense…but to put it another way (at the risk of being even more convoluted), not only does God have the perfect answer for how to have a great marriage that will last, to be a good parent, to be a better spouse, a better friend…but if you are connected to God then you can learn about His heart and what is of importance to Him and if you can learn to keep your eyes on THAT and through prayer ask Him to make the passions of His heart the passions of your heart as well, those things become aligned and then and only then do you see lasting change and beautiful growth in those important areas and only then are you able to keep accurate perspective on the things in your life that seem to come in and take over and leave you ragged and overwhelmed.  At the end of the day I just want to have a heart like God’s that shares the same cares and concerns that He has and less of the often futile and selfish pettiness of what seems to consume my heart and mind from day to day.  If I can do that then perhaps all of those other ambitious New Year’s resolutions will follow…

“He must increase, but I must decrease” – John 3:30

More of Him, less of me.

Happy New year friends.

Love,

Shay

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2 Comments »

  1. That was indeed both profound and inspirational. I love you a lot and am proud to call you my sister in Christ.

    Comment by Ashlee Proffitt — December 31, 2009 @ 2:55 am

  2. Beautifully said and so full of truth. Thank you for the encouragement to be tuning our hearts to His perfect will.

    Comment by Christina Ruhlig — December 31, 2009 @ 7:46 pm


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